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Written 10/07/2011……

My pain and suffering has increased, perhaps, 100 fold. I think I must have thought that it was already as bad as it could be – wrong. I have been experimenting answering folks’ questions concerning how I feel with the varied list that it is, and they always interrupt by having to see someone else, having to leave, etc. I believe it is because they don’t know what to say – overwhelmed.

That’s what I am – overwhelmed. I know that going to the doctor I will be asked, “What is your chief complaint?” Even the doctors are overwhelmed. I have been treated as “old” and unable to know my own body. I have been left alone by the physician as he attends to other matters. Since Dr. Cannon died, not one doctor has heard me “finish” my story.

I accept this from my Lord’s hands. I need to suffer. I need to weep. I need to climb upon my Father’s lap and trust. I need help. I need intercession.

A few days ago, I picked up a book I have of Elisabeth Elliot’s – “A Path Through Suffering.” She has been a mentor of sorts to me and I know some of her sufferings.

There were some underlings because I had read this book already. It has my writing inside the cover page that I bought it at J.O.Y. Bookstore in April, 1991. My heart “sinks.” This date is during a family tragedy of which I will never recover and begins my pain and sufferings.

The book falls open to a noted page inside – “read on day before cleaning out Joy’s room at Elizabethtown College.” Wanna’ know what I have underlined?

Why this waste?

Why this sacrifice?

Why this, when things seemed so promising?”

I have underlined some more: “Often there seems to be no visible reason for our having to let go. But, life, our spiritual life in Christ, depends on it. The life-out-of-death cycle must proceed.”

I turn the page and there is the date, 5/9/91, and more underlinings.


July 8, 2016 Posted by | Contentment, Dr. Don Cannon, Health Crises, on faith, Pages from my journal, Prayer | Leave a comment

Reminder post from this past October…

These are note cards that I made for myself from one of Nancy Missler’s books.  I have personalized them.  I sorely needed the Lord’s reminder of them today—perhaps you, too.  my love and thanks for each of you!

Note Card 1:

Romans 12: 1-2

“Father, walk through me and expose anything that needs to be dealt with. Cleanse me from hidden and secret faults. Let them not have dominion over me. Is there any way of pain in me? (means any way I am causing pain to my Lord, as well as my “fellowman.”) Lead me in Your age-lasting way.” Ps. 19:12-13; Ps. 139:23-24

Note Card 2:

Deny myself, take up my cross and follow Him!

Includes: denying “justified feelings,” rights, frustrations, offenses, hurts.

I count all thiings but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus, my Lord.

Read Phil 3:8-15

If anyone comes to me, and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers, sisters, yes, even his own life, he cannot be my disciple! Lk. 14:26  (This list does not include “husband.”)

Note Card 3:

Be willing to obey God’s will – no matter what! (Getting up and doing what God has called me to do.)

“At Thy Word, I will” – Lk. 5:5

“As there was a readiness to will, so there may be a performance also.” 2Cor. 8:11

Read Phil. 2:5-9

Note Card 4:


i.e. – self-centered

negative doubts of God

anything ungodly

Think on these things: true, honest, just, pure, lovely, good report, virtue, praiseworthy. Phil 4:8


Here is the second set of note cards that I use.  These are not necessarily needed daily like the ones above – but could be while you and I overcome long-held, deep resentment of sin.

Card #1:

Recognize, acknowledge, experience the negative thoughts, emotions, desires (the SELF) that just occurred. Do not vent nor stuff them! Give them to God. Ask Him to expose what is really going on inside me. What are the root causes?

Get alone with God! You will contaminate others. (This will prevent sin to accumulate.)

Do not confront until I am clean!

To experience my real thoughts and feelings is crucial. It helps me recognize exactly what to give to God. This must be done for peace to return. Feelings must not be bottled up. We cannot give feelings over to God if we don’t know what they are.

Ask God to expose them. Feel them – Then – Give them to Him! I will be healed.

Note Card #2:

Confess and repent of all the Holy Spirit has shown me. By faith, unconditionally forgive anyo9ne who has wronged me.

(To acknowledge that what we have done has quenched God’s Spirit in us is critical. I need to confess “ownership” of these thoughts and emotions and choose to turn around from following them.)

Example: “Father I confess I am depressed. I own these emotions. I confess I have chosen to entertain and follow these morose feelings over what You would have me to do – give them back to You – and it has quenched Your Spirit in me. That is sin. I now choose to turn around (repent) from following what these things are telling me to do and choose instead to follow You.”

Forgive others of their sins. Mk. 11:25,26; Lk. 23:34

Note Card #3:

Give all these things over to God! God does not take them – I must willingly hand them over.

I am giving “alms” – love gifts – with no strings attached.

Longstanding strongholds may become a spiritual battle. Don’t give up.

Keep a journal of this adventurn with God.

Note Card # 4:

Read God’s Word – Replace Lies with Truth!

Wash with the water of the Word – Eph. 5:26

“In my distress I called upon the Lord…He heard my voice out of His temple…He bowed the heavens, and came down…” Ps. 18: 6, 9


August 21, 2011 Posted by | Fervent prayer, Pages from my journal, Prayer | Leave a comment

Fervent prayer, part 3…

And he spake a parable unto them to this end, that men ought always to pray, and not to faint. Lk. 18:1, KJV

I have looked at this verse in other versions. Here are a few:

Luke 18:1 And he was speaking a parable unto them, as to its being needful for them always to pray, and not be faint–hearted; – Rotherham

Luke 18:1 Then Jesus told them a parable to show them they should always pray and not lose heart. – Net

Luke 18:1 And He spake a parable unto them to this purport that it is necessary, that men ought on all occasions to pray, and not to give up; – Companion Bible

Luke 18:1 And he spake also a simile to them, that it behoveth us always to pray, and not to faint, – Young’s Literal

Luk 18:1 ALSO [Jesus] told them a parable to the effect that they ought always to pray and not to turn coward (faint, lose heart, and give up). – Amplified

This parable and the one that begins in verse 9, tells us the reason and explanation first. That’s unusual. Most are explained at the end. Well, there is more to learn from the last verses, also, in this one. Let me paste the 8 verses here:

1, And he spake a parable unto them to this end, that men ought always to pray, and not to faint; 2, Saying, There was in a city a judge, which feared not God, neither regarded man: 3, And there was a widow in that city; and she came unto him, saying, Avenge me of mine adversary. 4, And he would not for a while: but afterward he said within himself, Though I fear not God, nor regard man; 5, Yet because this widow troubleth me, I will avenge her, lest by her continual coming she weary me. 6, And the Lord said, Hear what the unjust judge saith. 7, And shall not God avenge his own elect, which cry day and night unto him, though he bear long with them? 8, I tell you that he will avenge them speedily. Nevertheless when the Son of man cometh, shall he find faith on the earth? KJV

This parable begins with the primary conjunction, “and,” meaning, “continuing.” The Lord is continuing from chapter 17. (When you are studying, keep in your mind that chapter divisions are man-made for convenience – so are verses.) What’s in chapter 17?

A pharisee had commanded to the Lord a question: “ 20, And when he was demanded of the Pharisees, when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation: 21, Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within (in your midst) you.

Oh, and I just love what happens next! Our Lord continues, 22, And he said unto the disciples,

Only disciples are being addressed!

Stay tuned….


June 9, 2011 Posted by | Fervent prayer, Prayer | Leave a comment

How to Read the Bible: Eat This Book » A Holy Experience

How to Read the Bible: Eat This Book » A Holy Experience.

January 19, 2011 Posted by | "Word of God", How I Read in Context, Learning to read - accurately, Prayer | Leave a comment

Forgive, forget, and move on….

“forgive, forget, and move on.” Is this possible? And, most importantly, do we ever really forget.  This is my response to a reader:

I’m picking up your question here as I head to bed and I am a morning person; but I have a short answer tonight.

We are to forgive as “He forgives us.”  Right?

Our Lord’s forgiveness is not in effect until we ask for it, based on His shed blood for our sins.  Upon confession, HE remembers no more.  Or does He?  Perhaps the confusion is on that word, “remembers.”  God knows everything from beginning to end.  What He does do is not bring it back to His mind to be dealt with at the judgment seat.  It is no longer on our account. 

 So, how can I forgive others as He has forgiven me?

 When asked for forgiveness from the offending party, I completely forgive, first, by saying so; and then, by not bringing it up again in my memory or to the offender’s memory.  It WILL come to my memory.  I offer it (the thought, the memory) back to Him as a sacrifice of praise, acknowledging His forgiveness of me and the strength He gives me to not bring it up again to the offender.  The length of time this takes until it no longer jumps, unwanted, back to my memory is usually in relation to the depth of the hurt.  Sometimes,  I have to excuse myself from the reminding situation when all my flesh is screaming at me in memory of past hurts, and get alone with the Lord.  This is most important.  My bottom line motivation is to please the Lord.  I get alone with Him, immediately, or as soon as possible and admit my temptations to bring it all up again.  If your bottom line is not to please the Lord, then forgiving as He forgives us is not possible.  And, I still fail.  And, I still ask His Forgiveness and it is freely given me.

That may not cover your question concerning “forgive, forget, and move on.”  It cost our Lord’s life to provide forgiveness.  It will cost us our “self, fleshly life.”  But, you will not forget.  Never think carelessly about the forgetting process.  It is a long haul when the offense is deep; but one can be led to the point of peace and contentment by continually going to the throne of grace for mercy and help; as you offer to the Lord the sweet-smelling sacrifice of your will before him.

 Now – if the person never acknowledges his/her sin as it concerns you?

 No forgiveness can take place unless it is asked for!  That’s as Biblical as it can be.  Our part is to pray, wait, and remain in the attitude of forgiveness, if asked for.  Again, we must remain before the Lord with every thought, word, and attitude.  Just think.  It does give us opportunity to ever be before Him in praise and thanksgiving, asking for – and receiving – His help and grace for every need.  And, with no guilt on our part.  It is good, by the way, to discern where one’s feeling guilty comes from – someone else, or from the Lord.  Pay close attention to your guilt before the Lord, but take lightly someone attempting to put guilt upon you.  By the way, the Blood was shed for our guilt, as well as our sins!

 Now, that “move on” part.  I think, perhaps, I have covered it, in a way.  It is done with the Lord, only – His help, strength, grace, etc.  It is not done stupidly or foolishly.  Wise decisions must be made and practiced.

One of the best things I have done to help with personal relationships is read the Proverbs through every month for years!  There are 31 chapters, so that fits a chapter a day for most months and 2 chapters on shorter months.  You will learn how to treat a fool – or a jerk!  How you had better not co-sign a loan with someone.  How you need a wise friend so that “iron can sharpen iron.”

 Reading the Psalms through every month help with my worship and confession.  There are 150 Psalms.  Read 5 a day.  I read the one of the same number for the day – tomorrow, for example, is the 19th.  So, I begin with Ps. 19, add 30 to it and read Ps 49 next, then 79, then 109, and then, my favorite, 139!  I love the 19th of the month!!  These are good ones and it is amazing to see how they fit one another.


October 21, 2010 Posted by | Just for Women, Prayer, Proverbs, Reading the Psalms | Leave a comment

READING THE PSALMS….a personal testimony ……

Okay, I have told you how to read the Psalms (and Proverbs) every month – add 30 to the day’s date, etc.  Yesterday was the 19th, so I read Psalm 19, 49, 79, 109, and 139.  I guess the 19th is my favorite day!  I started to write about it – Ps. 19, –   where God compares His Word written in the heavens and His written Word and its benefits  –   and 139,  –  where I read how wonderful I am  🙂  no- it is “how fearfully and wonderfully I am made.”

This morning, however, begins with Psalm 20, where God reminds me again and again of His faithfulness and His responsibility to hear my cries and respond with His best answer at the time.  He has NEVER failed to meet our needs; but He doesn’t use the same methods every time.  I believe that when I was the most immature, but sincere, He was most blantant in His answers.  Thirty-three years later than the answer I am going to relate to you, He expects me to be thirty-three years more mature in Him – walking, moving and living – abiding in Him and bearing fruit – that my prayers and His answers are just tripping over each other in joyful praise. 

This story is kinda like the time the disciples were in a  storm at sea  (Mt. 14) because the Lord had sent them on by themselves, and He came to them when and how they least expected it- walking on the water!  

Many times since 1976, I have smiled and reminded myself not to figure out when nor how He would “appear” in my need, since it would come when and where I would least expect it.  “Mary, just ride the waves and wait!  I know where you are!”

Early in the year 1976, I noticed my husband being weary and worried.  I asked what was bothering him.  Oh, he was just concerned about our finances. 

 We were “home missionaries” in West Virginia.  We had been commissioned by First Baptist Church in Athens, TN, where Ansel Baker was pastoring.  This church had voted to send $200 a month toward our support.  The Home Mission Board contributed also, but we still struggled with finances.  There was no parsonage.  We had to provide our own housing –  yada,  yada,  yada.  Let’s skip to the good part!

“How much do we need to meet our needs and catch up, Bob?”

“$3,000.00.”   (This is 1976, would this be $30,000 today?)

The next day was February 20th.  Early morning devotions and Psalm reading for both of us – separately.

I record in my prayer requests our need for $3,000.

Bob is reading Ps. 50.  He gets to verse 10: “For every beast of the forest is Mine, the cattle on a thousand hills.”

“Father, sell a cow or two for us!” – he prayed.

This is Feburary 20th.        March passes.     April……..May……….June……….July……….

In the afternoon of August 20th…..a knock at the door.

An officer, standing there, hands Bob a certified envelope and a form he must sign.    Done – with wonder.

I join him for the opening ceremony.

A one-page hand-written note and a certified check for $3,000!

Note reads:  “Back in FEBRUARY, I sold some timber off my land.  I asked the Lord what to do with the tithe.  He said, ‘send it to the preacher husband of Mary,’ and I have been trying to get ya’ll’s address ever since.”

It was from an aunt (Daddy’s sister) who lived in Texas.  I had never met her.

The Lord didn’t sell any of His cattle – He sold  trees off one of those thousand hills!

August 20, 2009 Posted by | About, Prayer, Reading the Psalms | 1 Comment

Comparing “Prayer” in James 1 and 5…..

This morning I noticed some comparisons between Chapters 1 and 5 of James.  This is helpful when studying – comparing first chapter with last chapter – making notes from opening statements and the summary statements.  I decided to attempt to compare the prayers in the two chapters.  I copied and pasted  the definitions for you.  Now, you are to read and meditate them.  I used e-Sword for this study.  I LOVE this Bible study tool.  It used to take me many, many hours to study from the books we had.  These times had to scheduled – for the most part – when the children were at school and very early mornings.  Just think! It is free!  God is a Good, Giving God!  And, “to whom much is given, much is required!”

 Here it is: Jas 1:5-6:  “If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.

 6 But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.” (KJV)

 “English Version omits “But,” which the Greek has, and which is important. “But (as this perfect entireness wanting nothing is no easy attainment) if any,” etc.

lack — rather, as the Greek word is repeated after James’s manner, from Jam_1:4, “wanting nothing,” translate, “If any of you want wisdom,” namely, the wisdom whereby ye may “count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations,” and “let patience have her perfect work.” This “wisdom” is shown in its effects in detail, Jam_3:7. The highest wisdom, which governs patience alike in poverty and riches, is described in Jam_1:9, Jam_1:10.

ask — (Jam_4:2).

liberally — So the Greek is rendered by English Version. It is rendered with simplicity, Rom_12:8. God gives without adding aught which may take off from the graciousness of the gift [Alford]. God requires the same “simplicity” in His children (“eye … single,” Mat_6:22, literally, “simple”).

upbraideth not — an illustration of God’s giving simply. He gives to the humble suppliant without upbraiding him with his past sin and ingratitude, or his future abuse of God’s goodness. The Jews pray, “Let me not have need of the gifts of men, whose gifts are few, but their upbraidings manifold; but give me out of Thy large and full hand.” Compare Solomon’s prayer for “wisdom,” and God’s gift above what he asked, though God foresaw his future abuse of His goodness would deserve very differently. James has before his eye the Sermon on the Mount (see my Introduction). God hears every true prayer and grants either the thing asked, or else something better than it; as a good physician consults for his patient’s good better by denying something which the latter asks not for his good, than by conceding a temporary gratification to his hurt.”  (JFB)

 “But  –  Omitted in A. V. In pursuing this perfection you will find yourselves lacking in wisdom. One may say, “I know not how to become perfect;” but, if any man, etc.

Lack  Note the repetition.

Of God that giveth (τοῦ διδόντος Θεοῦ)

The Greek puts it so that giving is emphasized as an attribute of God. Lit., “Ask of the giving God, or of “God the giver.”

Liberally (ἁπλῶς)

Only here in New Testament. Literally the word means simply, and this accords with the following negative clause, upbraiding not. It is pure, simple giving of good, without admixture of evil or bitterness. Compare Rom_12:8, where a kindred noun is used: “He that giveth let him do it with simplicity (ἐν ἁπλότητι).” Compare, also, Pro_10:22. Men often complicate and mar their giving with reproach, or by an assumption of superiority.” (VWS)

From Vine’s New Testament Words:

aiteo (G154), “to ask,” is to be distinguished from No. 2. Aiteo more frequently suggests the attitude of a suppliant, the petition of one who is lesser in position than he to whom the petition is made; e.g., in the case of men in asking something from God, Mat_7:7; a child from a parent, Mat_7:9-10; a subject from a king, Act_12:20; priests and people from Pilate, Luk_23:23 (RV, “asking” for KJV, “requiring”); a beggar from a passer by, Act_3:2. With reference to petitioning God, this verb is found in Paul’s epistles in Eph_3:20 and Col_1:9; in James four times, Jam_1:5-6; Jam_4:2-3; in 1 John, five times, 1Jo_3:22; 1Jo_5:14, 1Jo_5:15 (twice), 1Jo_5:16. See BEG, CALL FOR, CRAVE, DESIRE, REQUIRE.


 Now the comparisons in Chapter 5: 13-18 –

 “Is any among you afflicted? let him pray. Is any merry? let him sing psalms.

 14 Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord:

 15 And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.

 16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

 17 Elias was a man subject to like passions as we are, and he prayed earnestly that it might not rain: and it rained not on the earth by the space of three years and six months.

 18 And he prayed again, and the heaven gave rain, and the earth brought forth her fruit.” (KJV)

 “G4336  –  Strong’s definition – “pray”




From G4314 and G2172; to pray to God, that is, supplicate, worship: – pray (X earnestly, for), make prayer.”

The Greek word in verses 14, 15, of chapter 5.

 “Prayer,” in verse 16: G2172:




Middle voice of a primary verb; to wish; by implication to pray to God: – pray, will, wish.”

 Second “prayer” in verse 16 is:G1162



Thayer Definition:

1) need, indigence, want, privation, penury

2) a seeking, asking, entreating, entreaty to God or to man

Part of Speech: noun feminine

A Related Word by Thayer’s/Strong’s Number: from G1189

Citing in TDNT: 2:40, 144”

 “Prayer” in  verses 17 & 18 is #G4336 (shown above)

 Now – print this and participate in Blessed study and understanding.  Remember, “understanding” means:  to be able to put together.  Remember also to call on your Teacher for help.

August 10, 2009 Posted by | James, Pages from my journal, Prayer | Leave a comment


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